{"id":17905,"date":"2022-12-05T18:22:34","date_gmt":"2022-12-05T17:22:34","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/nyje.al\/?p=17905"},"modified":"2024-09-27T15:13:09","modified_gmt":"2024-09-27T13:13:09","slug":"ida","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/nyje.al\/sq\/ida\/","title":{"rendered":"Ida"},"content":{"rendered":"<div data-elementor-type=\"wp-post\" data-elementor-id=\"17905\" class=\"elementor elementor-17905\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-58511fb4 e-flex e-con-boxed wpr-particle-no wpr-jarallax-no wpr-parallax-no wpr-sticky-section-no wpr-equal-height-no e-con e-parent\" data-id=\"58511fb4\" data-element_type=\"container\" data-e-type=\"container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"e-con-inner\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-4283b1f9 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"4283b1f9\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-e-type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p style=\"text-align: justify\"><span style=\"color: #800000;font-family: georgia, palatino, serif;font-size: 14pt\"><strong>Antonela Pepkolaj | 05.12.2022| nyje.al\u00a0<\/strong><\/span><\/p><p style=\"text-align: justify\"><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino, serif;font-size: 14pt\">Kusht p\u00ebr mbijetes\u00eb mund t\u00eb jet\u00eb p\u00ebrshtatja; diferencimi nga t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt; njohja e Tjetrit si m\u00ebnyra me t\u00eb cil\u00ebn shquajm\u00eb veten; apo vrasja e Babait p\u00ebr t\u00eb afirmuar veten. N\u00eb rastet n\u00eb t\u00eb cilat Tjetri tashm\u00eb t\u00eb ka diferencuar nga vetja dhe nuk d\u00ebshiron t\u00eb asocionohet me ty, kjo l\u00eb pak ose aspak hap\u00ebsir\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u2019u p\u00ebrshtatur, apo p\u00ebr mbijetes\u00eb. Mbijetesa b\u00ebhet nj\u00eb \u00e7\u00ebshtje e brendshme, q\u00eb i p\u00ebrket unitetit, i cili ekziston fal\u00eb nj\u00eb identiteti t\u00eb p\u00ebrbashk\u00ebt.<\/span><\/p><p style=\"text-align: justify\"><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino, serif;font-size: 14pt\">Identiteti \u00ebsht\u00eb edhe premisa nga e cila niset Ida p\u00ebr t\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb nj\u00eb kategorizim t\u00eb njer\u00ebzve q\u00eb njeh. I ndan n\u00eb: t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt si t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt dhe, t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt si ajo. Te t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt si ajo, hyn vet\u00ebm i ati i Id\u00ebs. Ndoshta \u00ebsht\u00eb Ida q\u00eb ka d\u00ebshiruar gjithmon\u00eb t\u2019i ngjaj\u00eb t\u00eb atit, ndaj identifikohet me t\u00eb. Gjithsesi p\u00ebr t\u00eb mbetet i pakund\u00ebrshtuesh\u00ebm fakti se, te i ati ajo evidenton gjith\u00eb gj\u00ebrat q\u00eb t\u00eb tjer\u00ebve u shp\u00ebtojn\u00eb.<\/span><\/p><p style=\"text-align: justify\"><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino, serif;font-size: 14pt\">I ati i Id\u00ebs i p\u00ebrzgjedh me shum\u00eb kujdes njer\u00ebzit me t\u00eb cil\u00ebt shoq\u00ebrohet, jan\u00eb njer\u00ebz me nj\u00ebfar\u00eb sqime dhe krenarie, njer\u00ebz q\u00eb, n\u00eb termat e t\u00eb atit t\u00eb saj, kan\u00eb dinjitet. Por Ida e di se babait t\u00eb saj nuk i intereson t\u00eb ruaj\u00eb dinjitetin e askujt, sepse ai flet me shum\u00eb ciniz\u00ebm p\u00ebr k\u00ebdo q\u00eb i jep sadopak r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi vetes dhe, sepse nuk ka hezituar edhe t\u2019u b\u00ebj\u00eb ndonj\u00eb t\u00eb keqe t\u00eb vog\u00ebl, t\u00eb tipit t\u2019i g\u00ebnjej\u00eb apo t\u2019i p\u00ebrdor\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u2019i b\u00ebr\u00eb ndere t\u00eb ndryshme. S\u00ebrish Ida ka dal\u00eb\u00a0n\u00eb p\u00ebrfundimin q\u00eb njer\u00ebz t\u00eb till\u00eb i mban af\u00ebr si nj\u00eb met\u00ebr p\u00ebr vetveten. Pret t\u2019i kuptoj\u00eb dhe tejkaloj\u00eb, q\u00eb m\u00eb pas t\u2019i trajtoj\u00eb me mir\u00ebsjelljen m\u00eb hipokrite dhe sip\u00ebrfaq\u00ebsore t\u00eb mundshme. Ky q\u00ebndrim, Id\u00ebs i ngjall nj\u00eb ndjesi frike dhe tmerri, kjo ka qen\u00eb dhe arsyeja e par\u00eb pse Ida e ka urryer babain e vet.<\/span><\/p><p style=\"text-align: justify\"><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino, serif;font-size: 14pt\">Donte t\u00eb lutej p\u00ebr t\u00eb, por nga frika se mos e ekspozon para Zotit, e la. Jo sepse Zoti nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb i aft\u00eb t\u00eb kuptoj\u00eb, por sepse nuk kishte dijeni n\u00ebse t\u00eb kesh vet\u00ebdije t\u00eb lart\u00eb dhe ta p\u00ebrdor\u00ebsh k\u00ebt\u00eb n\u00eb favorin t\u00ebnd, \u00ebsht\u00eb m\u00ebkat apo jo. P\u00ebrve\u00e7 k\u00ebsaj, ideja se Zoti mund ta b\u00ebnte t\u00eb atin e saj fatkeq, ta vendoste n\u00eb rrethana ku nuk do t\u00eb ushtronte dot autoritetin e tij t\u00eb heshtur, e tmerronte m\u00eb shum\u00eb se ideja q\u00eb i ati i saj mund t\u00eb jet\u00eb nj\u00eb hipokrit. T\u00eb urresh t\u00ebt at\u00eb pse \u00ebsht\u00eb i vog\u00ebl, dhe jo pse \u00ebsht\u00eb i madh, \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00ebsoj si t\u00eb thyesh kryet p\u00ebr tavan; \u00ebsht\u00eb vet\u00ebvrasje.<\/span><\/p><p style=\"text-align: justify\"><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino, serif;font-size: 14pt\">Ida besonte se i ati i saj fshihte nevoj\u00ebn p\u00ebr t\u2019u mahnitur dhe, duke qen\u00eb se askush nuk ia plot\u00ebsonte k\u00ebt\u00eb nevoj\u00eb, i shikonte pjes\u00ebn m\u00eb t\u00eb madhe t\u00eb njer\u00ebzve si njer\u00ebz t\u00eb dor\u00ebs s\u00eb dyt\u00eb. K\u00ebt\u00eb e ka v\u00ebn\u00eb re disa her\u00eb, n\u00eb rastet kur ai ka lavd\u00ebruar gj\u00ebra q\u00eb i urren, t\u00eb tipit veshje, kombinime ngjyrash, shijet specifike t\u00eb njer\u00ebzve n\u00eb p\u00ebrgjith\u00ebsi. E dinte se babai i vet ka nj\u00eb dob\u00ebsi p\u00ebr t\u00eb bukur\u00ebn dhe, fakti q\u00eb g\u00ebnjente p\u00ebr gj\u00ebra q\u00eb realisht nuk i honepste fare, tregonte q\u00eb ka humbur shpres\u00ebn se dikush mund t\u2019i shkonte p\u00ebr fije. Megjithat\u00eb, ai ka qen\u00eb shpesh kritik ndaj Id\u00ebs, kur nuk kurohej n\u00eb paraqitje, kur e linte veten pas dore, kur \u2013 si\u00e7 shprehej ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb \u2013 <em><i>nuk ka hije si fem\u00ebn. <\/i><\/em><\/span><\/p><p style=\"text-align: justify\"><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino, serif;font-size: 14pt\">N\u00eb marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnie me t\u00eb, Ida besonte se babai donte ta ruante t\u00eb brisht\u00eb dhe t\u00eb dob\u00ebt. E v\u00ebren n\u00eb faktin se, nuk pret\u00a0asnj\u00ebher\u00eb prej saj q\u00eb t\u00eb plot\u00ebsoj\u00eb nevojat e veta, p\u00ebr pasoj\u00eb duke e l\u00ebn\u00eb me nj\u00eb sens t\u00eb dob\u00ebt autonomie. \u00cbsht\u00eb menduar gjat\u00eb, n\u00ebse kjo sjellje \u00ebsht\u00eb instikt natyral apo \u00ebsht\u00eb sjellje e m\u00ebsuar. N\u00ebse, duke e mbajtur t\u00eb brisht\u00eb do ta mbaj\u00eb njeri t\u00eb hapur apo receptiv dhe, n\u00ebse duke e mbajtur t\u00eb dob\u00ebt apo naive, do e mbaj\u00eb t\u00eb \u00e7ilt\u00ebr. Shpesh e\u00a0n\u00ebnkuptonte se duhej t\u00eb rrinte e virgj\u00ebr, se dashuria e gruas shkon duke u sos\u00eb dhe se, e mashkullit i takon vet\u00ebm nj\u00ebr\u00ebs: asaj q\u00eb nuk e ka sos\u00eb me t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt. K\u00ebt\u00eb Ida e shikonte si inerci prej mal\u00ebsori, por \u00a0e justifikonte\u00a0duke th\u00ebn\u00eb se <em><i>\u201ci nj\u00ebjti njeri q\u00eb sot m\u00eb thot\u00eb t\u00eb ruaj virgj\u00ebrin\u00eb, \u00ebsht\u00eb i nj\u00ebjti njeri q\u00eb ruajti gjuh\u00ebn dhe fen\u00eb\u201d. <\/i><\/em><\/span><\/p><p style=\"text-align: justify\"><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino, serif;font-size: 14pt\">An\u00ebn e vet fisnike e tregon vet\u00ebm me ata t\u00eb cil\u00ebt realisht i kan\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb p\u00ebrshtypje, q\u00eb jan\u00eb pak. Gj\u00ebja q\u00eb Ida admiron m\u00eb shum\u00eb te babai i vet, \u00ebsht\u00eb se ka krijuar toleranc\u00eb ndaj t\u00eb keqes, por jo ndaj banalitetit. P\u00ebr t\u00eb jan\u00eb t\u00eb neveritshme kompromiset, servilizmat, injoranca, mungesa e disiplin\u00ebs. Pa\u00e7ka se e keqja nuk e lart\u00ebson njeriun, e m\u00ebson at\u00eb, nd\u00ebrsa banalja vet\u00ebm e posht\u00ebron. K\u00ebt\u00eb Ida e ka m\u00ebsuar nga i ati.<\/span><\/p><p style=\"text-align: justify\"><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino, serif;font-size: 14pt\">Ka m\u00ebsuar gjithashtu t\u00eb respektoj\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebrin\u00eb dhe m\u00ebnyr\u00ebn sesi \u00ebsht\u00eb rritur. Pa\u00e7ka sa ndryshojn\u00eb njer\u00ebzit, sistemi i mendimit me t\u00eb cil\u00ebn \u00ebsht\u00eb ushqyer si f\u00ebmij\u00eb, do t\u00eb mbetet gjithmon\u00eb nj\u00ebfar\u00eb ideali, p\u00ebr t\u00eb cilin do t\u00eb ket\u00eb nostalgji. K\u00ebt\u00eb e kuptoi kur i ati zihej me bab\u00ebn (gjyshin). I ankohej se \u00ebsht\u00eb njeri kok\u00ebshk\u00ebmb, se nuk ka pas\u00eb ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb vesh\u00eb p\u00ebr familjen e vet. K\u00ebshtu e kafshonte ngapak \u00e7do dit\u00eb. Derisa baba vdiq. Dhe i ati i Id\u00ebs e varrosi at\u00eb si njeri t\u00eb gjymt\u00eb. Prej turpit q\u00eb baba ishte\u00a0i gjymt\u00eb, i humbi siguria n\u00eb vetvete, p\u00ebr pasoj\u00eb edhe sensi i krenaris\u00eb dhe dinjitetit, me t\u00eb cilin justifikonte ep\u00ebrsin\u00eb q\u00eb mendonte se kishte. Deshi ta ndryshonte, por baba nuk preket. Bab\u00ebn duhet ta kishte gjetur n\u00eb tru dhe ta vriste aty.<\/span><\/p><p style=\"text-align: justify\"><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino, serif;font-size: 14pt\">Ndon\u00ebse represioni ngjante si kurajo dhe trauma si disiplin\u00eb, p\u00ebr Id\u00ebn, f\u00ebmij\u00ebrija dhe i ati jan\u00eb pjes\u00ebt m\u00eb intime t\u00eb vetvetes. Pyet veten n\u00ebse kjo ndjesi ve\u00e7imi q\u00eb e kan\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrbashk\u00ebt, vjen prej ndonj\u00eb paaft\u00ebsie p\u00ebr ta ndar\u00eb veten me tjetrin, apo prej ndonj\u00eb disonance natyrale me njer\u00ebzit n\u00eb p\u00ebrgjith\u00ebsi. Ndoshta \u00ebsht\u00eb edhe s\u00ebmundje, por t\u00eb pakt\u00ebn \u00ebsht\u00eb e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb.<\/span><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Antonela Pepkolaj | 05.12.2022| nyje.al\u00a0 Kusht p\u00ebr mbijetes\u00eb mund t\u00eb jet\u00eb p\u00ebrshtatja; diferencimi nga t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt; njohja e Tjetrit si m\u00ebnyra me t\u00eb cil\u00ebn shquajm\u00eb veten; apo vrasja e Babait p\u00ebr t\u00eb afirmuar veten. N\u00eb rastet n\u00eb t\u00eb cilat Tjetri tashm\u00eb t\u00eb ka diferencuar nga vetja dhe nuk d\u00ebshiron t\u00eb asocionohet me ty, kjo l\u00eb pak ose aspak hap\u00ebsir\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u2019u p\u00ebrshtatur, apo p\u00ebr mbijetes\u00eb. Mbijetesa b\u00ebhet nj\u00eb \u00e7\u00ebshtje e brendshme, q\u00eb i p\u00ebrket unitetit, i cili ekziston fal\u00eb nj\u00eb identiteti t\u00eb p\u00ebrbashk\u00ebt. Identiteti \u00ebsht\u00eb edhe premisa nga e cila niset Ida p\u00ebr t\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb nj\u00eb kategorizim t\u00eb njer\u00ebzve q\u00eb njeh. I ndan n\u00eb: t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt si t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt dhe, t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt si ajo. Te t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt si ajo, hyn vet\u00ebm i ati i Id\u00ebs. Ndoshta \u00ebsht\u00eb Ida q\u00eb ka d\u00ebshiruar gjithmon\u00eb t\u2019i ngjaj\u00eb t\u00eb atit, ndaj identifikohet me t\u00eb. Gjithsesi p\u00ebr t\u00eb mbetet i pakund\u00ebrshtuesh\u00ebm fakti se, te i ati ajo evidenton gjith\u00eb gj\u00ebrat q\u00eb t\u00eb tjer\u00ebve u shp\u00ebtojn\u00eb. I ati i Id\u00ebs i p\u00ebrzgjedh me shum\u00eb kujdes njer\u00ebzit me t\u00eb cil\u00ebt shoq\u00ebrohet, jan\u00eb njer\u00ebz me nj\u00ebfar\u00eb sqime dhe krenarie, njer\u00ebz q\u00eb, n\u00eb termat e t\u00eb atit t\u00eb saj, kan\u00eb dinjitet. Por Ida e di se babait t\u00eb saj nuk i intereson t\u00eb ruaj\u00eb dinjitetin e askujt, sepse ai flet me shum\u00eb ciniz\u00ebm p\u00ebr k\u00ebdo q\u00eb i jep sadopak r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi vetes dhe, sepse nuk ka hezituar edhe t\u2019u b\u00ebj\u00eb ndonj\u00eb t\u00eb keqe t\u00eb vog\u00ebl, t\u00eb tipit t\u2019i g\u00ebnjej\u00eb apo t\u2019i p\u00ebrdor\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u2019i b\u00ebr\u00eb ndere t\u00eb ndryshme. S\u00ebrish Ida ka dal\u00eb\u00a0n\u00eb p\u00ebrfundimin q\u00eb njer\u00ebz t\u00eb till\u00eb i mban af\u00ebr si nj\u00eb met\u00ebr p\u00ebr vetveten. Pret t\u2019i kuptoj\u00eb dhe tejkaloj\u00eb, q\u00eb m\u00eb pas t\u2019i trajtoj\u00eb me mir\u00ebsjelljen m\u00eb hipokrite dhe sip\u00ebrfaq\u00ebsore t\u00eb mundshme. Ky q\u00ebndrim, Id\u00ebs i ngjall nj\u00eb ndjesi frike dhe tmerri, kjo ka qen\u00eb dhe arsyeja e par\u00eb pse Ida e ka urryer babain e vet. Donte t\u00eb lutej p\u00ebr t\u00eb, por nga frika se mos e ekspozon para Zotit, e la. Jo sepse Zoti nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb i aft\u00eb t\u00eb kuptoj\u00eb, por sepse nuk kishte dijeni n\u00ebse t\u00eb kesh vet\u00ebdije t\u00eb lart\u00eb dhe ta p\u00ebrdor\u00ebsh k\u00ebt\u00eb n\u00eb favorin t\u00ebnd, \u00ebsht\u00eb m\u00ebkat apo jo. P\u00ebrve\u00e7 k\u00ebsaj, ideja se Zoti mund ta b\u00ebnte t\u00eb atin e saj fatkeq, ta vendoste n\u00eb rrethana ku nuk do t\u00eb ushtronte dot autoritetin e tij t\u00eb heshtur, e tmerronte m\u00eb shum\u00eb se ideja q\u00eb i ati i saj mund t\u00eb jet\u00eb nj\u00eb hipokrit. T\u00eb urresh t\u00ebt at\u00eb pse \u00ebsht\u00eb i vog\u00ebl, dhe jo pse \u00ebsht\u00eb i madh, \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00ebsoj si t\u00eb thyesh kryet p\u00ebr tavan; \u00ebsht\u00eb vet\u00ebvrasje. Ida besonte se i ati i saj fshihte nevoj\u00ebn p\u00ebr t\u2019u mahnitur dhe, duke qen\u00eb se askush nuk ia plot\u00ebsonte k\u00ebt\u00eb nevoj\u00eb, i shikonte pjes\u00ebn m\u00eb t\u00eb madhe t\u00eb njer\u00ebzve si njer\u00ebz t\u00eb dor\u00ebs s\u00eb dyt\u00eb. K\u00ebt\u00eb e ka v\u00ebn\u00eb re disa her\u00eb, n\u00eb rastet kur ai ka lavd\u00ebruar gj\u00ebra q\u00eb i urren, t\u00eb tipit veshje, kombinime ngjyrash, shijet specifike t\u00eb njer\u00ebzve n\u00eb p\u00ebrgjith\u00ebsi. E dinte se babai i vet ka nj\u00eb dob\u00ebsi p\u00ebr t\u00eb bukur\u00ebn dhe, fakti q\u00eb g\u00ebnjente p\u00ebr gj\u00ebra q\u00eb realisht nuk i honepste fare, tregonte q\u00eb ka humbur shpres\u00ebn se dikush mund t\u2019i shkonte p\u00ebr fije. Megjithat\u00eb, ai ka qen\u00eb shpesh kritik ndaj Id\u00ebs, kur nuk kurohej n\u00eb paraqitje, kur e linte veten pas dore, kur \u2013 si\u00e7 shprehej ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb \u2013 nuk ka hije si fem\u00ebn. N\u00eb marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnie me t\u00eb, Ida besonte se babai donte ta ruante t\u00eb brisht\u00eb dhe t\u00eb dob\u00ebt. E v\u00ebren n\u00eb faktin se, nuk pret\u00a0asnj\u00ebher\u00eb prej saj q\u00eb t\u00eb plot\u00ebsoj\u00eb nevojat e veta, p\u00ebr pasoj\u00eb duke e l\u00ebn\u00eb me nj\u00eb sens t\u00eb dob\u00ebt autonomie. \u00cbsht\u00eb menduar gjat\u00eb, n\u00ebse kjo sjellje \u00ebsht\u00eb instikt natyral apo \u00ebsht\u00eb sjellje e m\u00ebsuar. N\u00ebse, duke e mbajtur t\u00eb brisht\u00eb do ta mbaj\u00eb njeri t\u00eb hapur apo receptiv dhe, n\u00ebse duke e mbajtur t\u00eb dob\u00ebt apo naive, do e mbaj\u00eb t\u00eb \u00e7ilt\u00ebr. Shpesh e\u00a0n\u00ebnkuptonte se duhej t\u00eb rrinte e virgj\u00ebr, se dashuria e gruas shkon duke u sos\u00eb dhe se, e mashkullit i takon vet\u00ebm nj\u00ebr\u00ebs: asaj q\u00eb nuk e ka sos\u00eb me t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt. K\u00ebt\u00eb Ida e shikonte si inerci prej mal\u00ebsori, por \u00a0e justifikonte\u00a0duke th\u00ebn\u00eb se \u201ci nj\u00ebjti njeri q\u00eb sot m\u00eb thot\u00eb t\u00eb ruaj virgj\u00ebrin\u00eb, \u00ebsht\u00eb i nj\u00ebjti njeri q\u00eb ruajti gjuh\u00ebn dhe fen\u00eb\u201d. An\u00ebn e vet fisnike e tregon vet\u00ebm me ata t\u00eb cil\u00ebt realisht i kan\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb p\u00ebrshtypje, q\u00eb jan\u00eb pak. Gj\u00ebja q\u00eb Ida admiron m\u00eb shum\u00eb te babai i vet, \u00ebsht\u00eb se ka krijuar toleranc\u00eb ndaj t\u00eb keqes, por jo ndaj banalitetit. P\u00ebr t\u00eb jan\u00eb t\u00eb neveritshme kompromiset, servilizmat, injoranca, mungesa e disiplin\u00ebs. Pa\u00e7ka se e keqja nuk e lart\u00ebson njeriun, e m\u00ebson at\u00eb, nd\u00ebrsa banalja vet\u00ebm e posht\u00ebron. K\u00ebt\u00eb Ida e ka m\u00ebsuar nga i ati. Ka m\u00ebsuar gjithashtu t\u00eb respektoj\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebrin\u00eb dhe m\u00ebnyr\u00ebn sesi \u00ebsht\u00eb rritur. Pa\u00e7ka sa ndryshojn\u00eb njer\u00ebzit, sistemi i mendimit me t\u00eb cil\u00ebn \u00ebsht\u00eb ushqyer si f\u00ebmij\u00eb, do t\u00eb mbetet gjithmon\u00eb nj\u00ebfar\u00eb ideali, p\u00ebr t\u00eb cilin do t\u00eb ket\u00eb nostalgji. K\u00ebt\u00eb e kuptoi kur i ati zihej me bab\u00ebn (gjyshin). I ankohej se \u00ebsht\u00eb njeri kok\u00ebshk\u00ebmb, se nuk ka pas\u00eb ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb vesh\u00eb p\u00ebr familjen e vet. K\u00ebshtu e kafshonte ngapak \u00e7do dit\u00eb. Derisa baba vdiq. Dhe i ati i Id\u00ebs e varrosi at\u00eb si njeri t\u00eb gjymt\u00eb. Prej turpit q\u00eb baba ishte\u00a0i gjymt\u00eb, i humbi siguria n\u00eb vetvete, p\u00ebr pasoj\u00eb edhe sensi i krenaris\u00eb dhe dinjitetit, me t\u00eb cilin justifikonte ep\u00ebrsin\u00eb q\u00eb mendonte se kishte. Deshi ta ndryshonte, por baba nuk preket. Bab\u00ebn duhet ta kishte gjetur n\u00eb tru dhe ta vriste aty. 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